Having doubts already.. this relationship is amazing but whats wrong with me?!
Iv been with my girlfriend about 8 weeks and recently Iv been wondering if it was the right choice... She is amazing and makes me feel good about myself but I cant help but hold back, I feel as though I cant 100% commit.. Is this normal?....
I'm a natural flirt, I cant help it.. most of the time I don't even realize I'm doing it until someone points it out, Its just a part of who I am but I feel this is creating a barrier for me when it comes to a relationship. I don't know if my girlfriend has noticed this or if I'm just over thinking things but the past few days shes been distant from me.
This is such a new experience for me as its the first time Iv come out and open in a gay relationship.. I've always kept my gay relationships quiet as Iv always been the 'odd sheep' in the heard.. Don't get me wrong I came out as bisexual just after leaving school but never really felt the need to shout from the rooftops whenever I got together with someone.. some of my friends have never seen me with another girl. I have strong emotional feelings towards my girlfriend and I love being around her but I feel as though Iv lost some of who I am by not being able to have a laugh with other people as I feel like I'm flirting... Does any of this make sense to anyone as it certainly doesnt make sense to me!
I don't want to be single but I dont want to feel like this, should I tell her how I feel or keep quiet and see if this goes away?!...
I'm a natural flirt, I cant help it.. most of the time I don't even realize I'm doing it until someone points it out, Its just a part of who I am but I feel this is creating a barrier for me when it comes to a relationship. I don't know if my girlfriend has noticed this or if I'm just over thinking things but the past few days shes been distant from me.
This is such a new experience for me as its the first time Iv come out and open in a gay relationship.. I've always kept my gay relationships quiet as Iv always been the 'odd sheep' in the heard.. Don't get me wrong I came out as bisexual just after leaving school but never really felt the need to shout from the rooftops whenever I got together with someone.. some of my friends have never seen me with another girl. I have strong emotional feelings towards my girlfriend and I love being around her but I feel as though Iv lost some of who I am by not being able to have a laugh with other people as I feel like I'm flirting... Does any of this make sense to anyone as it certainly doesnt make sense to me!
I don't want to be single but I dont want to feel like this, should I tell her how I feel or keep quiet and see if this goes away?!...
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